Your life is full. So why do you keep thinking, “Is this it?”

You can love your family, be proud of what you’ve built and still feel the urge for something to change. The awkward part is trying to say what you want when you’ve spent years being the person who knows what everyone else needs.

What the Hell Do I Want Now? is a 56-page, no-BS reset for Gen X women who are tired of automatically putting themselves last.

Sound familiar?

• You’re managing so many moving parts that your own thoughts keep getting pushed back.
• People still expect the version of you who said yes to everything years ago.
• The same little irritations keep coming up, but you talk yourself out of taking them seriously.
• You want something different. You just can’t quite name it yet.

What’s inside

Seven chapters in three parts take you from why you feel like this, through what needs to change, to what you do now.

• Clear the “400 open tabs” taking up space in your head.
• See what you’ve taken on by default and what no longer fits.
• Pay attention to repeated friction, old roles and the things you keep wanting to explore.
• Use our SPARK framework to sort what to Stop, Protect, Add, Reduce and Keep curious about.
• Choose one move you can make without needing a five-year plan.

You’ll get honest writing, questions worth sitting with, practical prompts and a one-page cheat sheet to come back to.

A note from Gill

“I wrote this because I hit 50 and realised I didn’t want another bloody five-year plan. I wanted to know what I want before deciding what comes next.”

— Gill Townsend, founder of Midrising™

A few quick answers

Do I have to know what I want already?
No. That’s the question the book helps you explore.

Is this telling me to change my whole life?
No. You’ll look at what still fits, what doesn’t, and one move you want to make now.

What am I buying?
A 56-page digital PDF with seven chapters, reflection prompts, the SPARK exercise and a final cheat sheet. This is a digital book; there’s no physical copy.

What the Hell Do I Want Now?